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Yes I am leaving tomorrow. I am really so much tense this time. I just hope that every thing goes fine. Wish me luck and pray for me guys! Really need it!

Yes I got back late night yesterday and I shall be leaving tomorrow again. This time, it was a mixture of issues that happened, thankfully nothing happened in my program but there were other issues that did arise. Thanks to all of your wishes, my program went well.

It was a very packed module this time as we finished the curriculum of 5 days in 3 days. So you can expect that what would be the pace that I had to pick up and how much the audience was grilled by me ;-)? But that was the need of the time and I couldn’t help it. Even we went really fast and packed, I got some very nice comments on the last day of the program about me. For the first time I heard that the audience submitted the feedback forms which are online at our premises on the very first day of the program. According to them, they judge the person on the first day and that impression doesn’t change. They did like the program and that’s what is the best thing for me.

Now coming on issues. In my class program , I did a seminar for one day. Some how I didn’t receive any attendance sheet for that program and for the very reason, I didn’t take attendance too. Now that was required. As I didn’t receive it so I had no other choice but to skip it. And it became a small issue as the sheet is must. Well I didn’t have to explain myself much as I never received it but it did become a concern for my sales team. So my sales person had to go by himself and get it signed. Well it was a real pain but there was no other choice. The good thing that happened was that my sales person was VERY happy when he got back. He told me that he has got a good feedback about me and also the coordinator from the client has sent a long mail about me. Well I am certainly not eligible for this whole nice words about me but yes it felt nice to hear. I really am not sure that what did I say /do that they liked because I don’t know anything and I really am saying the truth about it. There is very little I know and for that much knowledge, its a big applause. I really am thankful to the guys for being so nice to me.

Ok now for the bad things, the coming event is going to be the toughest one. Not because, the module is so tough but because that the client is a complete idiot.  I hate those people who first do some thing wrong thinking that they are right. Than when they are told that they are or were wrong, they try to justify their acts by giving logics/reasoning’s which suits to no one else but just to them. Rather than being sorry for that, they keep on trying to justify their mistake. I hate this, I really do and this client is the same. When some thing is told to someone 2 weeks back , how the heck he/she can miss that than all of a sudden ask for a complete round about of things and all of this coz now they have messed up everything just being plain lazy on their part? Lets see how things will go?I am really not sure what will happen this time? And on the same evening, I shall have to undergo with a very important call which is very very important for me. I just hope that call session goes fine. Lets see what happens on “the day”! But for now, music time and I am going to listen Heeriye!

Yes I shall be leaving tomorrow. I am not having a good feeling from inside. I don’t know why? And on the top of everything, I am not in a good mood too. Hope everything goes fine. Lets see what happens? Pray for me guys!

 

Saawariya was among the most awaited movies in this year for Indian movie industry. I happened to see this movie with my sister in cinema. Yup you heard it right, I went to a movie hall.Infact after about almost 10 years.  I vowed that when ever I shall go to movie, I shall go with some one else but that wont happen I guess and my sister was keen to watch this movie so I joined her and went.

So how is the movie? Well its kind of ironic but my last couple of posts were about pains of love and how one feels when left by his/her love and this movie was no different as gal leaves the boy in the end.Snajay Leela Bhansali picked up two newcomers, Ranbir Kapoor and Sonam Kapoor and have tried to portray a story of 4 nights when the guy meets the gal. To be really true about the movie, its not like a movie, its like you are watching a play. Like in the play, on the same set, everything is happening, people come and go, different scenes of different moods are on the same set. So was the case of this movie also. Its not going to rock the box office as it was expected to do. But its a good piece of art work. Music is great. It has already become a rage now. So did I like the movie? Well I liked the movie hall much better than the movie ;-). Ok serious now, I liked 10 minutes of the movie and all the songs of it. Overall, disappointed!

Yes I am just listening from last 2 hours Shail’s Hiriye Soniye about which I wrote also here. When you will see the video, you will see that the guy never cares about the gal. Its his wish when he will talk to her, meet her. Even when its his own birthday and the gal waits for him for 3 hours, for him its a wastage. Her love, care, emotions all seem to be a botheration for him. In the last moments of the video, gal is in tears and says few lines to the guy which are some thing like this, “coz I love you so much that’s why you do this to me. You see the day when I shall leave you forever and go, you will cry so much and look for me but I wont come back.”. I am just listening these lines with the song. How much pain she is feeling at that moment can’t be described in words. Don’t know why people hurt those only who love them so much? A heart touching song as I said before too and a must watch video too. Even if you wont understand the language, if you have ever loved some one and tasted the pains of love, you will understand this video and the emotions of it too.

Some times when you get hurt physically, the wounds hurt you for a very long time. Their pain never lets you sit calmly and with every moment, you feel a very strong pain at that place. Some time, these wounds heal fastly but there are time when it takes a long time for them to heal. With that, the pain does go away but some time when you sit and just think (and some times even when you don’t do it yourself), those moments of pain, that time of injury shivers you and you feel the same pain, even if its years since the last time when it happened to you. Though the wound has been healed but still you feel the pain just like it was yesterday when it started.

Wounds on the body are still able to heal mostly. But there are some wounds which are never seen and there are some pains which have no sound. These wounds are not caused by any physical accidents but they are given by those people whom one takes as his life. These wounds don’t come over the body and bleed like the normal ones but they come when some one’s soul gets bruised and heart is shattered. They may not bleed from outside but they for sure, hurt the same and some times much much more than them too.  As it is said that when glass breaks, its sound goes till miles but when a heart breaks than no one hears. That’s why the pain of these wounds and sound of those cries which come with them are never heard by anyone else but by that person only who has got them. People do hurt others and often never bother about it but one is able to bear that coz all don’t matter much. But when some one who is closest to you does the same to you,it hurts way much more than it otherwise would had. It really hurts more than words even can try to describe. And the worst is that no one ever seems to be bothered about these pains too coz they are inside you. They say time heals every wound, but may be they don’t remember that time does heal a wound but the sign of that wound never goes! And that’s why even when you smile all day along and cheer up those all who are around you, when you are with yourself , your heart  cries and those cries are silent. Some time back, tears used to come with them but now they too don’t seem to be bothered. May be they think that when that person whom you loved this much is not bothered than why we should be at the first place? When he can say that he has nothing to do with you anymore than why we should be so concerned about you? You want to close your eyes and you do that too but just when you close them, everything comes in front of you. Every word heard which felt like melt glass in your ears, every moment just comes right in front of you forcing you to open those eyes which seem to be filled with tears to you but tears don’t come. The pain of these tears never goes away and one life time becomes much smaller for them to heal.

These are the lines which are not written by me but they are representing that lover who is left alone by his love. These lines are describing his state and how he manages to pass his life with a broken heart. These are in Punjabi and I shall explain their meaning in English after this. Have a read:

 

Dukh vichore de dil nu tadfaun jadon,

Gam ohde jad dil mere nu faahe paun jadon!

Hanjuan de marham jakhman te la laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

 

Peeran di jo jindagi te sardari hai,

Mainu khushian nalo wadh pyari hai!

Dard mile tan ghut ke gal la laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

 

Dil de boohe yaad purani aa dhuk dee,

Seeney vichon chees jadon uthdi!

Usnu andar kite sama laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

 

Chitt kare jad rovan bhubban mar ke main,

Tur jaawan jind ohde sir ton waar ke main!

Kujh majburain de agge sir jhuka laina,

Ro ro ke main kamla dil samjha laina!

 

And their meaing in English is as follows,

When pains of separation, hurt me so much,

When wounds given by her try to kill my soul!

I heal them with the herb of my tears,

I just cry and make my mad heart understand now!

 

These pains which are now with me,

They mean to me more than anything else now!

I just hug when I see pain some where now,

I just cry and make my mad heart understand now!

 

When heart want to cry so much,

When it says to leave this world and go so far away,

Some responsibilities of mine hold me. 

And then,

I wish to you all a very happy and prosperous Diwali. For those who don’t know much about this one of the biggest festivals of India, you can read about it here. Enjoy this day of joy with your friends, family and dear ones with lots of sweets and crackers. Heartiest wishes from me to all of you!

Yes I am back today morning. It was a good and some what a bit relaxed tour. Well as like always, what matters to me the most is the program must go well and the audience must be happy and contended.  I guess I got that so yes I am happy!

As like always, I left from my home to catch my flight which was supposed to fly at 8pm from Delhi domestic airport. Without much of the trouble, I got Delhi at about 4pm by bus and in next one hour,means at 5pm I was at airport. Well there wasn’t much rush at that time on the airport so I thought that it would be easy for the first time to complete all the check in details and everything. Well to some extent, it was right too. But all the happiness and smile flew away of mine when I came to know at the check in counter that flight is half an hour late and that too is just the estimation.  There is still no clear information that how much more it can be delayed but it will be that is for sure. Great! Well I had no other choice but to wait and watch. So I grabbed a hot lemon tea cup for me with a burger and sat.  I was told that it would be announced at about 6pm that what time flight will fly so I thought it wont be that bad.  Only till there was no announcement even till 8pm, I was happy. Hmm so what can be the time if still there is no announcement at 8pm even? Time to ask the ground staff. And as committed as like always in providing information, they had no idea about it :-). Well they gave me the “golden answer” for sure, it will be announced “very soon”. How soon that was yet to be decided. So nothing else to do but to wait and watch again. So once again, one cup of coffee and I was watching news. At about 9pm it was announced that the airline regrets to announce that flight no XXX which was supposed to fly at 8pm will now fly at 11:05pm. WOOHOO! What else I could ask for than 3 hours of wait ( did I tell that I was alone) on the airport? So it was coffee , news , watch and more coffee news and watch. At 11:05pm it was announced that flight is now ready to board. At that time, I saw that there were about 100 students(kids) were also traveling to Jaipur. And they shook the whole airport like anything with their chaos. Well it was good to see all of them so happy and all that anger was a bit mild now. So finally we all boarded in the flight and those kids were shouting, clapping , singing like anything. Well it was a very short flight so we were there at Jaipur at 12.05pm. I took my prepaid cab and started for my guest house. I was supposed to be there at 9.30pm but I was a mere 3 hours late :-).Well better late than never, so there I was.

Program started calmly and the audience was also very calm, cool, energetic and genius. It was a good audience in over all. Mine was the last program and there were already 2 programs which were conducted by two other persons. Mine was a little advanced one so it means it was a little difficult one too. But it still went smooth. There was tremendous support and appraisal from the group. There was one participant who was staying in the same hostel where I was so we used to go for walk after dinner. At that time, we used to discuss lots of issues,both technical and non-technical too. He was really a very nice and intelligent. Though being the director of a state government organization, he was so humble. And the same goes for all of the participants. Despite being on so top posts , they were so humble.

So we finally finished the module and since the program was over , the group led by Mr.Rakesh decided to go to Chokhi Dhani which is one of the highlights of Jaipur. Chokhi means good and dhani stands for small village, so its actually a concept of displaying how a small village and its atmosphere would likely be. Its very well constructed and maintained. I recommend if you are coming to Jaipur, try not to miss visiting here. There is a lot that you can do and see here. From puppet show to magic show, from caves to camel ride everything is here. The participants insisted me to ride a camel. Well I thought that how difficult it can be so I said yes without knowing that it doesn’t always mean that simple looking things are always simple only :-). It was a very nice feeling that I had as I did ride on camel for first time. If you don’t believe me that there are few snaps here taken by Akul to prove my truth. It was a great adventure. I was told that this is the best place to come with your spouse or with your girl/boy friend. Well I have neither wife nor girl friend but still I enjoyed so much, so don’t worry even if you are alone. Only one thing I missed out of all and it that I was fasting on that day so I missed the food but may be next time.

Next day, Rajan and me decided to go and have a look in the market of Jaipur so I accompanied him with Akul or I should better say that Akul came along with both me and Rajan. We spent so much time walking in the famous Bapu Bazar of Jaipur. It is a great place to shop with lots and lots of variety in clothing especially. Again , a must visit place from my side. From there, me and Rajan took a walk in a mall. There was nothing much to do there. So we had our dinner and came back to our rooms.

Next day(yesterday) , it was supposed to be that a senior level state IPS officer was supposed to officially come and end the program but due to official workload,she couldn’t. So everyone gave me this responsibility and honor to say the final words and end the program. With a heavy lunch, we all departed.

On the whole, it was a really nice experience and I am happy that I was able to end the program with a good note and smile was there on everyone’s face. There are couple of pics that were taken while our visit to Chokhi Dhani and also , there were couple of shots taken by students in the training room also. Yes training room, you heard it right! So if you ever wanted to see how my class and me(if you are interested )its your chance to have a look . Below is the link to the album and I am off to bed for some sleep.Enjoy!