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Joke Of The Day…. June 26, 2008

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Okay this will be a short one as I am traveling and having a tough time.  But this is something which I found very funny so thought to share with you. I got a call from Worldspace Radio sales person. He asked me that when he can come to me so that he would be able to present a demo of the Worldspace Radio and its services. He spent some time to explain to me about price, features and all that. Well I told him that I am traveling so I shall be available in my city after a while. But I was curious to know that he got my number? To this what he replied is some thing which made me jump off my seat and I couldn’t stop laughing. He said that their company has the data and details of all the people in my city who are “extremely rich” and yours truly somehow got listed in the same list :-). Well I was able to say this only that this must be a mistake but he said no this isn’t and he simply refused to listen anything what I was saying about that I am not at all any richy rich guy whatsoever. Well I asked him to call me some time later and hanged up. Not sure that I shall be going forward to buy that radio but surely  his information about me proved for me a good smile. Now lets see when it actually comes out to be true ;-)!


Travel Time Has Come Finally…. June 21, 2008

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Yes I shall be leaving tomorrow. This time I have stayed beyond my normal timings. Thanks to my accident, I had to cancel couple of programs of mine. Anyways I shall be leaving tomorrow and to make things spicy, I shall be doing two toughest programs for the “originators” of the technology itself. Great! So it means its not going to be any joy ride. Lets see what happens? Things are not so good. I am just hoping that all would go well and stay like that only. Pray for me guys, I really need all of them now!

CCD & Small Arguement…. June 20, 2008

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Cafe Coffee Day(CCD) is one place where I like to go whenever I get a chance and have some spare time. Alone? Well yeah I go alone most of the time. Seems like no one else likes coffee ;-). But yes I go alone as for me that time, I am just with my self. Its a great fun to sip coffee and watch people doing funny things all over the time. I have just been to CCD few days back with my sister and her friend. My sister wanted to do some shopping so I had to go along. While coming back, we sat in the new joint of CCD,3rd in my city. Well I didn’t like the place at all. It didn’t look like a cafe joint but rather a college canteen. Anyways I tasted a new taste(not so new but first time in CCD). I really want to go to my favorite joint and sit for some time there. The only problem is that I am not able to make up mind to go there. There are certain things happening which are stopping me from going there mentally. Lets see when I shall go?
Those who know me ,they will confirm this that I am not sort of a person who gets into arguments much. I prefer to stay out of them in my best powers. There are two reasons for it. One and the most important one is that I think its a total waste of time and energy to argue over something. Its okay if some one wants to say that he/she is right, let him/her enjoy this feeling. I am least bothered to prove that I am right. Second is that I can’t support anything which I know for sure is wrong. If I see that I try always to say that this is not right,please don’t say that or do that. And before saying that I have all the valid reasons with me to prove my point. And its not very often that my counters can be broken. Despite my best try that I don’t get into arguments, some times it becomes unavoidable. The same sort of thing happened OTN forums this past week when I answered this question.   Well it turned out to be not-so-good thread. I generally prefer to guide people for the legal and ethical ways to get knowledge about Oracle rather than using any cheat-sheets or illegal means. But some how the other person was not agreed to this. I had to reply in some strong way. Though it did end with a good note but still, its something which I don’t prefer to happen often.

Feelings Revealed Truly & Musically…. June 19, 2008

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In music, out of the most pure forms of it, one is Qawalli. This is that form of music which is sung by the people who are not mere singers but devotees of God. This form of music was not a part of commercial music industry some time ago but due to its magic, its now very common to hear this in almost every where. Despite its used now in the commercial music industry, still the original form of it with minimum music instruments and claps of the singers while singing is the most popular one and remains untouchable. There are many singers who sing this form of music but some have made it a household name due to their singing. Late Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan  is among those very few who singers who are known as the masters of this devine music form.
Out of millions of Qawalli songs available, there are some which hit straight in the heart. There is one that I am listening from some time and thought to share with you all. This one was specially recommended to me by my friend Sumit who himself is a very good Qawalli Singer. It has some thing which reveals the emotions of a  gal whose beloved has left her alone and now she is crying. In this song, she is saying about all the pains that she is bearing.
It is said that only those like and understand qawallis who have tasted pain and its still there in their hearts. Well its not that you have to have a pain then only you can enjoy it but still,this is what is popular about qawalli.I am not sure that whether you would like this music form or not as its not the one which normally one hears in  movies or albums. But if you have ever loved and got hurt in it, you would be able to relate with the lyrics for sure. Singing of Nusrat saheb is by far excellent but I can’t say about you whether you would like it or not.
Despite searching a lot for this Qawalli over the web , I couldn’t find any site where it is available. I am still looking for it and will update the link whenever I shall find one. As I couldn’t find any at the moment, so I requested my friend S to host it over his web folder as he has a copy of this in a dvd. Here is the link for you to hear it,
Hanju Akhiana De Vehde Vich
Lyrics are in Punjabi. I shall post their meanings in English as well in a while.  Here are first in Punjabi,
Hanju akhiyan de vehde vich paunde ne dhamalan!
Hoye dahde dilgeer, khichi yaadan ne lakeer,
Sanu chann mahi terian eh terian khalyan!
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Seene nal la ke teri yaad de khidone nu,
Aunde jande sah mere ap vich khehnde ne!
Lagde ni aakhe mere athru nadaan ne,
Akhan di dehleej utte tik ke na behende ne!
Hanju akhiyan de vehde vich paunde ne dhamalan!
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Mere athru tapp nai sakde kade dehleej eh akhian di!
Teri yaad da kam eh jehdi boohion baahar v lai gayi hai!
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Main dol ke kaase akhian de,Nit daag jigar de dhoni aan!
Jad chann te tare hasde ne,Main kallian beh beh roni aan!
Hanju akhiyan de vehde vich paunde ne dhamalan!
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Tera nit da vichoda mere dil nu sataunda!
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Duur ja ke bhul geyon sanu dil janian!
Vain payian paundia ne sadhraan nimanian!
Tera nit da vichoda mere dil nu sataunda!
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Keeta ki kasoor tera das ja ve dholna,
Apna bana k inj chahida nai rolna!
Tera nit da vichoda mere dil nu sataunda!
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Luk geyon kithe rog pyar wala la ke!
Umraan da rona saadi jholi vich pa ke!
Tera nit da vichoda mere dil nu sataunda!
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Tera nit da vichoda(repeat)
Tere baajhon mere dil nu karar naion aunda!
Hoyon jadon da tun wakh, meri lagdi ni akh!
La ke seene nal mahiya tere dukhde main paalan!
Hanju akhiyan de vehde vich paunde ne dhamalan!
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Hanju akhiyan(repeat)
Yaadan terian de paani mera mukhda paye dhonde!
Tainu kar kar chete mere athru v ronde!
Hanju akhiyan de vehde vich paunde ne dhamalan!
Mere dil diyan gallan mere dil vich rahian!
Mere dil diyan gallan mere dil vich rahian!(repeat)
Loki puchde ne te main ki dassan!
Mere dil diyan mere dil vich rahian!(repeat)
Tera naam lai k mehne mainu dendian ne saaian!
Loki kehnde mainu jhalli,rowan beh ke main kalli!
sukh jindagi di beri vichon maar gaye ne chhaalaan!
Tere bajhon chann mahiya sune kaun mere haade!
Tere bajhon chann mahiya sune kaun mere haade!(repeat)
Mere dil dian haawan full khushian de saare!
Akhin hanjuan da dera,wass chalda ni mera!
Tuhion dass ena motian nu kive main sambhalan!
Hanju akhiyan de vehde vich paunde ne dhamalan!(repeat)
Hanju akhiyan de vehde vich paunde ne dhamalan!(repeat)
Saara saara din langhe rahan ch khalodian,
Khaure meri jindagi ne langh jana rondian!

And here is the translation of the same in English,
My tears are dancing in the courtyard of these eyes!
I have become insane,memories have shaken me!
All the time my love I am thinking just about you!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
I am surrounded by just your thoughts only!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
I am holding so close to my heart this toy of your memory!
My breaths are scratching me beneath my chest!
My tears being naive pay no attention to what I say!
They don’t sit firmly on the doorsteps of these eyes!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears would had never touched this boundary of my eyes,
Its just your memory which has made them even cross it!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
By pouring water from eyes,I try to wash these stains on my heart!
When this moon and these stars smile,I just sit alone and cry!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
Living away from you burns my heart every day!
Living away from you(repeat)
Living away from you(repeat)
You have gone so far and have forgotten me!
All my wishes are crying and dying!
Living away from you burns my heart every day!
Living away from you(repeat)
Living away from you(repeat)
Tell me what did I do so wrong with you,
One must not destroy someone after making her fall in love!
Living away from you(repeat)
Living away from you(repeat)
Where have you hid yourself now,
After giving me this pain of lifetime!
After putting these tears in my lap for the rest of my life!
Living away from you(repeat)
Living away from you(repeat)
There is no peace in my heart without you!
Since the day you have gone,I never slept!
I am keeping even pains given by you close to my heart!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
Tears while remembering the memories wash my face!
When I think of you,even my tears cry!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
All my wishes are buried in my heart only!
All my wishes (repeat)
How am I supposed to answer these people’s questions?
All my wishes (repeat)
My friends taunt me by calling your name!
People call me crazy when I sit alone and cry!
Entire happiness  has jumped off from this boat of life!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
Without you who else would pay attention to my cries!
Without you(repeat)
My cries have burnt all the flowers of happiness!
I have no control anymore,tears have taken over these eyes!
You only tell how am I supposed to take care of these pearls of tears?
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)
All day I stand on the door and wait for you,
Seems this life would be over in this wait only!
My tears are dancing (repeat)
My tears are dancing (repeat)

These lines come to mind all the time. These are the lines which a lover is saying to his beloved that why he has left him in midway? These are in Punjabi. I shall be explaining the meaning in English in a while. Have a read,
Adhwate je koi chhad tur jave,
Hove na koi fatt is fatt warga!
Jar laini c main tan ,
Dunia di har changi mandi gal!
Sirf eho soch ke tun mere nal hain!
Par tun kehdi gallon sajna,
Hath chhad mera adhwation hi pichhe mud gaya!
And their meaning in English is here,
If one leaves in you midway,
There is no pain like this one!
I could have faced every good/bad time,
Just by this belief that you are with me!
But why did you left my hand and leave me alone in the midway?
I have nothing to say,nothing to add. What ever I could say,its already mentioned in the above lines of the poetry. I shall conclude by saying this only that its very easy to start a relation, its much more easier to break. What is difficult to do is to maintain it and that’s where most fail!
Let me know did you like this qawalli or not?

Truly Touching…. June 13, 2008

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Just now I saw this video when it was sent to me by one friend of mine. And what ever is mentioned for this video in its description is indeed true. Love is blind as they may say but its all about choosing between your wish and your love. If you understand the importance of love, the choice comes easily between two. A very touching video I must say,showing something which is very hard to do despite how much one he/she boasts of!
I am posting the video right here. The song is not in English as the band, Kiss J-Intercom is a Korean band. The song is in the same language. I am posting the video which is having English subtitles of lyrics.  I shall be the posting the lyrics too here.  Watch the video here,
Here are the lyrics,
Its’s impossible to understand
What’s going through a guy’s heart!
You tole me that you wanted me and now that I’ve
given you everything,you tell me you’re leaving!
You told me that it was the first time you
felt this way, and said that I was special!
I believed you….and it was my happiness!
You should have told me that your feelings had faded,
I had no idea and I continued to depend on you!
Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you,
Because I am a girl,to whom love is everything….
They say that when you give a guy
all he wants, he quickly gets bored!
And now I know that’s the truth….
And although I tell myself,I’ll
never be tricked by love again!
I fall in love and my heart is broken again….
You should have told me that your feelings had faded,
I had no idea and I continued to depend on you!
Although I say I hate you now, I’ll be missing you,
Because I am a girl,to whom love is everything….
They say that when you give a guy
all he wants, he quickly gets bored!
And now I know that’s the truth….(repeat)
Please don’t break the heart of gals
Who would do anything for love….
I didn’t know that living this life
while being loved would be so hard
Although I say I hate you now(repeat)
(Gal is saying this)
Today we broke up,
You told me to meet someone better than you,and be happy….
You are just like all the other guys….
What happened to when you told me that you loved me?
Honestly, I don’t want you to be happy!
What am I going to do if you really forget about me?
I am in so much pain,more pain than I can bear….
Because I am still in love with you….
I didn’t know that living this life
while being loved would be so hard
Although I say I hate you now(repeat)
The lyrics are what a gal is saying to a guy but its not about being a gal or a guy. Its just being someone who stands all alone when his/her leaves him/her. The pain felt is same either one is a gal or a guy. Love is same for both of them. In video, it may sound absurd to give away your eyes. But that’s what love is, that’s what is said that love is blind and what ever you do for your love is nothing in front of him/her. Just what I mentioned a while ago that nothing is important, no wish  nothing means much more than your beloved and his/her happiness!  Do let me know what do you feel about the lyrics and definitely about the video too!

Wishes, Choices & Love…. June 13, 2008

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Life is full of wishes. We have lots of dreams and for all of them, we make lots of wishes. Some times those things come to us which we had always wished and some times , those things come to us which we had never wished to have in our wildest dreams even. But despite for few times when we don’t get what we wish,we never give up.  As wishes are and will be always there in our lives. They make humans! If they are not any , one still must zero upon few wishes, Where he wants to be in his life, what he wants to achieve! If one doesn’t have these things in his mind, he should sit and think about all these things. After all we have got just one life and we must make sure that in this very life only , we do accomplish all that what we ever wished!
Just like wishes, we also have choices. Choice like either to pick right things or to go for wrong ones. Choice to make some one happy or give him tears. Choices to take away everything from some one and still call him selfish! Choice that either we  sacrifice what ever little we ever had
for someone’s one smile even or to make that person sacrifice himself only to get our one smile!Yes choices for whom no one else but only we are responsible,not once or twice but always! Choices are linked with wishes too. Its certainly possible that what one had wished in the past,now to get that, to make that wish come true, he now has to make a choice in the present. We all do that isn’t it? All the time, right from our childhood, we do one thing or the other to get
what we want! And we are never happy when we don’t get or can’t get what we really wished for!
Choices and wishes are very integral part of our lives.  But there is one more thing that is also very integral in our lives. Some thing which makes a human a human, some thing which makes this heart a “heart”, some thing which comes by luck only but stays only with efforts.  I am sure you have guessed it up til now.  Yes that is love! Yes among lots of other wishes, I guess most of us do wish for a partner too who would love us beyond any limits, be with us till the eternity. A partner who when smiles,,make us smile , whose tears make us cry too, who would stand with us in all the times, good or bad, happy or sad! And a partner with whom we want to spend our entire life with, call him just ours and of no one else! Among all the sweet feelings in this world who touch heart, love is the sweetest and among all the persons whom we had or we ever are going to meet in this very life, that one person will always be most special whom we call our beloved, whom we say ( and love to hear back all the times) , I love you!Yes love is the sweetest feeling in this world and forever will be but we forget one thing that love has to share space
with our immense wishes!

Wishes are very important and depending on the age, time, every wish for every human being can be really very important. For a child, getting a toy gun or a barbie doll can be as important as for a teenager to have 200cc sports bike or for an aspiring model to win Miss Universe contest or food for that person who is hungry from several days! Yes our lives are full of wishes and we only decide what is important for us, which wish is more important to us at what time/age/circumstance! Is there anything wrong in it? No, there is nothing wrong in doing this. What kind of wish it would be when its not important for us? Yes wishes are and should be important in our lives and we have all of this world’s rights to decide what’s important for us and what’s not. There is no issue or complexity in this belief till the time one thing doesn’t come along  and cross paths with wishes,love.
When love comes in a person’s life, lots of things change. Apart from long sleepless nights and an immense satisfaction that now finally we have some one who is just ours,there also comes ( should come) a feeling of responsibility, an unsaid promise that no matter what happens, we will always be there with our love, we will always hold his/her hands and wipe his/her tears,share his happiness. There is no need to explicitly make this promise. All things doesn’t need to be said and told and so is this promise! Love is not just making phone calls or having meals together or going to movies or giving roses on every other day. Love is much more than all of this. Love means a promise to take care of your beloved when he/she needs you, stand by his/her side when he/she needs support and no one is ready to be with him/her, love is to make sure that no matter what happens , you are always going to fill your beloved’s lap with this whole world’s smiles and happiness and love is a promise to love your beloved till the that very last breath left in you and even after that! Yes love is all of this which is a lot hard to do as compared to make a call and say 100 times, I love you or sending a forward text message having lyrics of some romantic
song or giving a greeting card telling 101 reasons why you love your beloved! Love is much harder than all of this.  Its not a road full of roses but an ocean of fire which one has to swim through to get to the other end.
Wishes never leave us. Or more precisely to say,we never let them leave away from us. They are always there and like all the other times, they are there then too when we are in love. It is indeed said that love makes the person forget this whole world but I guess person never forgets some of his core wishes. Wishes that he always had, how come one can forget all of those wishes just because now some one is a part of life? And like having wishes is no crime, its no crime either to think about those wishes which one always had before the arrival of that some one special in his/her and keep on working for them. After all if that person whom has just come in your life truly loves you, he will be only happy to see your wish come true and see your smile. There can’t be anything more better than the smile on the face of our love isn’t it? But how we are going to make all of our wishes come true? There is a price of everything and there is certainly a price for each and every wish that we have and want to come true!How deeply we want some thing, its reflected from that price which we are ready to pay to make that wish come true. Bigger the wish is ,pricer its going to be!And  despite it is true that one must do whatever it takes to make his wishes/dreams come true, how far can you stretch the line for this?
Uptill what extent one should go far to make his/her dreams come into reality? Success comes with “selfishness” but how much selfish one has to be or should be? If the answer is to “whatever extent” than the next question is, how about at that time one should be selfish about his/her own wishes when he/she has some one else too along with him/her, some one who is not just any other person but the one who is your love or for whom you are his love! What now? Who is more important, your wish or that person who loves you? Yes its tough but I never mentioned that love is easy or to be in it will be a fairy tale. So what now, you have your love along on one side and your wish on the other, whom you would pick? Tough choice you may say right? No its not a choice that is so hard to make.Remember that with your love along with you, you may be able to accomplish that wish of yours at any point of time in life but if you will lose your love, it may never come back again! With someone along,you can get all the “things” but with just “things” with you, you can’t get back that person whom you have left in the midway.  Back to the question, so what one should do?Either should pick his/her love or pick his/her wish and for that wish, sacrifice that person and his/her love itself? Is it right to do that? Is it right to put countless tears in that very person’s eyes who is happy just by seeing your happiness ,to make sure that your dreams come true let go all of his wishes! Is it right to leave that person in mid way just for this reason that if he is along with you,it will become difficult at some moment to make some wish of yours a reality? Is it right to break some one’s heart into pieces and move on like there is nothing happened just because after doing this,your wishes will come true without any issues or problems? Is it right to stretch the line this far? Its very tough to let go your success and happiness for your love.  Making sacrifices are tough and requires a lot of guts to do so!One have to have a real strong heart filled with immense love for that very person. Its very hard to see something going away right in front of your very eyes which is everything that you ever wished for and still feel no regrets about it. I have not seen many yet who have done that.  Its very hard to let go that chance which may settle your entire life to fulfill a promise that you had made to that someone special!Its really hard to do when you know this chance may never come back again!But if you love that person more than anything, it doesn’t seem to be a very big price. All that comes to mind is so what if this option is gone,if not this ,some another one will come. But that person may not come back again so whether this option is there or not,without any second thought in mind,you pick your love! Its so easy to make a choice when you know what is the priority,your wish or your love! But most of the times it happens that people choose their wishes but not that person,not their love and leave him/her saying that if he would
be there, all of their dreams,wishes, their career,that will not happen and they have to be selfish to get all this!And because they have to be selfish and all this means much more, they have to leave you!Even though you are crying in front of them, they don’t listen and leave saying sorry as they have no time for tears,they want all this and they wont get it if they would be with you.  It hurts so much to hear that! It really does hurt so much to see that for whom you left everything,that very person left you only to get everything else and still calls you selfish! It does hurt much more than it can be expressed in words!There is no pain like the one to see that for that very person you were “nothing” who was always “everything” for you! It hurts so much to see that wishes of better career,better study and better life won but your poor love lost!
When one person does travel thousand of miles to see his beloved,does every possible small or big thing to make his beloved happy,leaves his own wishes and dreams about anything just as they may effect his promises,its not for getting any credits or acclaims! No true lover in this world does anything for his beloved to get acclaims.  He doesn’t need fame for doing it,doesn’t need any credits to be given to him by anyone for making his beloved smile(or atleast trying in the best possible manner to achieve this).All this is just a gesture,just an endeavor to make that person feel special as she really is,to show him/her that he/she is the most special one and the best thing that has ever happened!There is no limit to what can be done for our love and once you have decided,there is no power in the world which can stop you from doing anything for your love!People have sacrificed their entire lives,gave up their kingdoms and served as servants in their beloved’s homes,drowned in the rivers with pots just to fulfill a promise that it wont be possible that on any night,they wont meet!But none of them ever wished for any credits.All what a lover is looking for is that smile which comes up on his beloved’s face,that shine in the eyes which comes when she does see some thing which is done just for her.If one travels thousands of miles to see his love,its not to prove that he is the best in this world or trying to set a record in front of anyone.  All this has nothing to do with world.  The only thing that matters is that few moments that he would be able to spend with that person who is the most special for him,all this is to make a promise turn into reality and failing in doing so will hurt his beloved and indeed him too.  He is not looking for this that people quote his efforts to make his love smile as an example as the world doesn’t matter at all.  That someone special only is the “world” for him.What world thinks or understands,it has no meaning for a lover,what means the most ,what a lover always longs for is that very person for whom this all is done,she/he understands it,she/he understands the efforts that were put into to make all this happen and can feel the emotions of that person!It matters the least if anyone else gives any importance or not to what has been done but few words from that someone special like,’baby I am so much happy that you have done this for me,I know you love me so much!’,means the most,means everything for that person!Words like this make forget all that pain,all the sweat that had went into doing all this!Its not the credit what matters.  There is nothing comparable in front of that feeling that you have done some thing,may be the smallest thing in the world even for your love,no acclaims,no credits can take its place.  Hearing those three magic words ‘baby I love you’,is something for which any lover would give away his/her life even,is the most precious gift. But if instead of
hearing this,if one has to listen that what all he/she has done for his/her beloved,that has made his/her beloved feel embarrassed,that he/she who has done all this is just for his/her selfishness and happiness,it hurts not just the heart but also the soul!It hurts so much that for whom you have done all this,for him/her only this has no meaning.It hurts so much to sit in the corner of your room, crying and waiting endlessly for him/her to come,telling yourself every minute that she/he will surely come doesn’t matter what!But despite waiting with every breath,he/she never comes even knowing that you are waiting. Every day you get up thinking that its not true,its just a bad dream which will be over today but it never gets over and then again you realize that its not a dream,its a cruel reality. You feel that pain again and realize that now its your destiny to live with this pain till the rest of your life. All you think with tears playing in your eyes that what was your fault,what was the mistake that you did? What was so wrong that you did with that someone special for which he/she gave you this lifelong punishment!It hurts so much to see
that your beloved whom you always want to be happy and try your best to take away all of his/her problems, says to you that the only problem he/she has in life is none else but you! Something gets broken deep inside of yours, your heart gets broken down into million pieces!No one can understand the pain when you cross oceans to see your love so that you can be with him/her  but despite knowing that you have done this and you are there,he/she never comes to see you.Its not that every pain has to have an injury over outside of the body.Some wounds happen within and their pain is something which doesn’t get healed by any medicine!Its so difficult to face those penetrating eyes which drill down deep inside of you when they look at you and seems laughing at you because sometime back,you fought with them supporting your love! You always gave answers, stood in support for your love in everything,even when he/she was wrong but there are no answers for those millions of questions which are asked to you when that very love for whom you did all this leaves you in the midway. No one wants to cry but as it is said, one gets the biggest smiles from those only who are the closest and dearest ones,in the same manner ,one gets the deepest pains from those only who are most dearest ones!Pains which only that person can understand truly who is bearing it.  Like a hand will never come to know how it feels to get a slap, how much painful it may be,its only that face knows who has got it, others can’t even imagine that pain,can’t even have an idea what it is to be alive yet die every day!That pain can’t be understood by anyone else.I wrote these lines almost a year back when I wrote about a Short Story  but still these lines from Baba Fareed keep on striking in mind all the time.Have a read,
Ve kasam khuda di tun sanu pyara laggen,
Te tu na kar jor dhigane!
Nange pinde sade maare shammkan,
Te mere ronde ne nain nimane!
Jinnian tan mere te laggian,
Tere ik vi lagge tan tun jane!
Gulam farida dil othe dayie,
Ve jithe agla kadar v jane!

And their meaning in English is :
I love you from my heart truly,
Please don’t hurt me like this!
Dont smack me on my naked body,
And give me just tears in my eyes!
As much wounds I have taken and the pain I am in,
When you will get just one even than you will come to know!
Gulam Farida, give your love at that place only,
Where some one at least understands what love is and respects it!
These are the lines which a lover is saying to his beloved who have left him but he is still looking for her to come back,even knowing that she would never come! These are in Punjabi.I shall explain their meaning in English in a while.Have a read,
Talashdan haan har raste te tainu main hun tak,
Nai sambhal paya haan udon da main aj tak!
Oh sarian shaaman jad tun mere naal hundi c,
Meri har ik gall da makhol kar dindi c!
Kiven samjhwaan dil nu ki tun nahin partana,
Terian yaadan de sahare hi samaan paina kattna!
Yaadan da sahara lai ke main kadon tak jianga,
Ena athruan de vich hi is nu dubo devanga!
Darr hai mainu bas ikko gal da,
Na karin eho haal hor kise dil da!
And their meaning in English is,
Till today my eyes are looking for you,
I have yet to recover from the pain given by you!
All those moments when you were with me,
And used to make fun of everything of me!
How should I convince this heart that now you wont ever be back,
And I have to live this life just with your memories!
Not sure till how long I shall live with memories,
I shall drown this life in these tears only!
The only thing that scares me now,
That you won’t do the same to anyone else!
I shall conclude by saying this only that everything has its importane in this life.Be it a small one or a big one,everything is precious.But the most precious asset in this world are the people who are with us and the relations which we share with them. Its very rare in this small life of ours that we can meet too many of those who can give away themselves for us.Most in this world are those who are ready to take everything! Assets can come and go and so is true for other things.Its very rare to that people are happy to see you happy.Most are willing to take away that happiness and give tears.Heck some are not even satisfied to see tears even in eyes as if those too don’t belong to us.If you have found someone who says that he/she loves you truly and deeply, keep him/her closest to yourself and don’t let him/her go away. Its very rare that someone loves you really and its much more rare that after losing him/her, you may find another who will be alike.Don’t look for a “better one”.There is no such thing called better!Love is not to find the best person in this world.Rather it is to find the “best out of that person”.Don’t lose heart if you have to lose some wishes in exchange of your love,you are still having the best part of the deal.With love being your side, there is no limit on what you can achieve.But if you have traded your love for even the most precious thing in this world,though you may have got the biggest treasure, you still have lost everything.You have lost that someone who would share that joy with you,who could give you a shoulder when you really needed it,who was the one who was truly yours!You never know whom you have lost,may be he/she only was the “one” you were always waiting for! You just never know!

Few Words,Yet Again…. June 9, 2008

Posted by Aman.... in Random Stuff.

I never thought that I would be able to write some thing,some thing which would be having any sort of relation with art. I don’t know how such nice things in our literature are written. But still , as it is said, sometimes, you don’t know what will happen which will make you do unbelievable things.  The same happened and I wrote my first poem, Few Words. And then I wrote 2 more, Once again and Few Words Again. As I mentioned at over these posts too, I am not at all a poet or even closer to that.  Its just what I felt and wrote, just tried to give face to feelings with words that’s all!
I haven’t written another “few lines”. This time its just 2 lines! And except for explaining the meaning in English ( as the original is in Hindi), I wont be explaining anything about it. If you have loved, you would be able to understand the meaning yourself. If you have never been in love and won’t understand the meaning, let me know and I shall try to explain. So here it goes,
Jo akhiri tohfa de gaye wo jate jate!
Boond boond mein lut raha hai wo bhi har pal!
And the meaning of this in English is,
That very last gift too which she gave me before leaving,
That too is getting away  with every drop!
As I said, I leave it on you to understand the meaning. If you do got the meaning, let me know too!

A Different Sort Of Programming…. June 1, 2008

Posted by Aman.... in Random Stuff.

I got this one in my mail! I am not a programmer and I really don’t like programming much. May be that’s the reason I chose to become an Database Administrator(which still I have to become though) but this programming is something which I guess even person like me could understand it and as like added bonus,it made me smile too! So have a read,
class Single_ female_professional                                 
   double styles;                                                          
   short skirts;                                                           
   long time_to_understand_ problems;                                       
   float mind;                                                             
   void knowledge();                                                       
   char non_co_operative;                                                  
 class Married_female_ Software _Professional                               
   double weight;                                                          
   short tempered;                                                         
   long gossips;                                                           
   float hopes;                                                            
   void work();                                                            
   char unstable;                                                          
 class Female_Engaged_ software _professional                               
   double time_on_phone;                                                   
   short attention_on_ work;                                                
   long boasts;                                                             
   float on_cloud_nine;                                                    
   void understanding( );                                                   
   char edgy;                                                              
 class Newly_ Married_software _professional                         
   double dinner_invitations;                                              
   short time_at_work;                                                     
   long lunch_breaks;                                                      
   float talks;                                                            
   void bank_balance( );                                                    
   char henpecked;                                                        
  class Husband_ wife_software _professional                          
   double income;                                                          
   short temper;                                                           
   long time_no_see;                                                       
   float new_software_ company;                                             
   void love();                                                              
 class Guy_who_wrote_ this                                                  
  Long time_on_pc;    
void work(); 
So how it was! Do let me know in which class you fall in ;-)!